Attention all ye' Masochists.

Yesterday morning, I woke up at 5.20am convinced that T had just spent the night with NGF and slept with her multiple times.

So, unthinking, I pick up my phone.
I text:
"Hey. Just randomly woke up and got the feeling that you and NGF slept together last night... lol, did you?"

- Not an unreasonable question, its how friends are meant to act, right?

No reply for a few minutes...

I call him. - Gah, I am an idiot...
Phones off.

I text again:
"Actually... Don't reply to that... May my question 'Hey T, How you going?'"

I wait a few minutes... collect myself... tell myself its none of my business if T is sleeping with someone else, I met up with ER on Friday night and hooked up. So yeah...

Final text:
"Hey, actually, don't reply at all. Sorry, moment of weakness, I'll call you later in the week. Be safe."

He didn't write back.

I am currently fighting the urge to text him and tell him about how I just met up with Smiley (mentioned in last blog). But, I am going to continue to resist, because, if I do call, I will have to be like, "Yeah, it was good, how is NGF?" then he would say "Good" I assume... but then, Since I am such a masochist, I would have to naturally ask "Have you slept with her yet?" and the answer, being Yes would break me... and if the answer was No, I would just assume he was lying anyway, and he probably would be lying if I thought he was, cause he is a bad liar, so it would come out later down the line that he was lying (always caught him out) and that would just upset me more... And I am just getting to the point where I am almost properly over it... So, I can't fall back now.

So yes, anyway... Smiley came over thismorning, after lots of texts last night - gosh darn me and my phone. (Just recieved a text from him as I wrote that haha.)
I breifly showed him my room, then we went to a local shopping centre and bought some dvd's, then walked around for a while talking, then he drove me home, still talking quite deeply.

I replied to his text with:
"Goodo Smiley. I had a nice time today, I'd look forward to a chance to do it again. :)"
He wrote back with:
"Yeah it was fun, yeah mate, have fun today ttyl."

Ok, so back to ER, who I cannot remember why I have called ER. Oh, just remembered... ANYWAY! Texting him on Monday, we figured that we wouldn't be able to catch up for a few days... I was out and about with friends, so suggested I drop in... He was down, but half way there, I asked for his adress and he full backed off.. So I was disappointed... he just said "Next time, give me like an hrs notice..." I replied with "Mk." There has been no communication since.

I dunno, maybe I will text him now... I'll let you know what happens.

x.